I thought it would take forever for Sept. 19 to get here. This was our scheduled u/s appointment and the day we could find out what we were having. I guess it wasn't until about 12 weeks that I started to feel that it was a girl tumbling around in my belly. I think the fact that all of TJ's family telling me it would be a girl probably got me thinking that way. But, all my dreams have always been of me holding a baby girl...never a boy. I just had a strong feeling that it was a girl. I honestly was going to be shocked if they told me boy...not disappointed, just shocked.
My dad surprised me and came to the u/s. They called us back at 1:30 on the dot..thank God for no waiting. I was already anxious enough. I felt like I was going to poop my pants! It was my first tummy u/s too and the sonographer did a lot of measurements and checking anatomy before we could take a peek between the legs. She counted...2 hands, 2 feet, 2 arms, 2 legs, measured the head, checked the nose and lips...sometimes we could make out the body parts and other times we were like..wtf is that??? It took her a little bit to measure because this baby was super active and wouldn't stay still. The sonographer even said that I wasn't lying when I've said I feel the baby moving. Finally, it was time to see if it was a boy or a girl. Right away, she got the perfect view and froze the frame, pointing out there were not boy parts so it was definitely A GIRL!!!!!! All I could think to myself was I knew it. I felt it. I cried and had a permanent smile on my face for the rest of the day. I think TJ got a little more scared knowing that he's going to have a little girl to take care of for the rest of his life, along with me. And if she does half the stuff we've done...we are in big trouble!!!
It's an amazing, yet terrifying feeling, knowing that you are going to be a parent. I'm already thinking of the things I will teach her, the things I want her exposed to and the things I don't. It's crazy because you can try to mold this person into what you want her to be or what you never were. I want the absolute best for her already. I love knowing that she's a girl and I can call her by her name and not "it". Speaking of the name...we struggled with the girl name. We've had our boy name picked out for years, but the girl we couldn't get. Originally, I liked the name Bryn, but it just wasn't sticking with me like our boy name always has. We went through a name book of 50,000 plus names and still had no luck. We tossed around a few, but again nothing stuck until we were in Missouri in August for vacation. Someone mentioned Charlie...TJ's dad's name. We thought about it and both really started liking it. So, ever since...the name stuck. Of course we've had doubts about it because it is usually a boy's name, but when we thought of the meaning and the fact that she will carry on her grandpa's full name put to rest our fears. I think she will be proud to know that she is named after her grandfather, a strong and hard-working man. We've changed the spelling to feminize the name a little and her middle name is after my Aunt Tina. We also have Charlie on the Symmes' side too, so the name couldn't be more perfect...
We can't wait to meet you Charlee Christine.
I can feel her move now all day, everyday. TJ has yet to feel her, but I think over the next week or two, he will be able to. My belly is definitely out there now. I think around the 16 week, it really popped out. I have some occassional cramps and aches, which I attribute to growing and stretching. Sometimes I already feel like I'm waddling and I'm only 19 weeks! Almost half way there. It is still unbelievable to me sometimes, knowing everything we went through to get here, not knowing if we'd ever get here. I feel so very blessed to have this experience. I'm peeing every 10 minutes it feels like and am now sleeping with a pillow between my legs, but I wouldn't change a thing. Especially knowing now who it is all for...my precious baby girl.
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