743

I still don't think it's hit us yet.  I know I'm pregnant and I believe I'm pregnant, but it's still so surreal.  Everything we've done for the last two years has led us to this.  Month after month of Big Fat Negatives.  We kept saying IVF has to work for us, but there was always doubt.  Now, I know that IVF can and did work for us.  We had a busy weekend with my brother coming in town and a friend from Missouri here, so TJ and I haven't really even had a chance to bask in our wonderful news.  I can tell he's thrilled though.  He has said he loves me even more and can't wait to see my belly grow.  He sent me a dozen red roses to work, thanking me for all I've done.  I did go through alot to get here, but so did he.  We got through it together. 

I had another blood test yesterday and my hcg level was 743, which is great.  It's supposed to double every 48 hours.  I go back in a few days for one more blood test.  I would imagine it would be over 1000 by then and we will schedule our first ultrasound. Our first ultrasound!!!

Over the last couple years, I have heard friends talk about what it felt like to see and hear the heartbeat for the first time.  I remember wanting to experience that so badly, but was scared to death that I never would.  Now, I'm so close.  Again...I can't believe it!  I know in my heart now that we will be parents and that this little bean growing inside me is going to become a healthy beautiful baby.  Our first baby!