The last few days seem surreal. On Tuesday, I was for sure I was starting my period. I had all the symptoms. I had pretty much given up hope. We decided I would go ahead and test when we got home from work Tuesday night. Neither one of us could hold out any longer. I just wanted to see the negative so I could deal with it and move on. A friend of mine had given me a test to use and since I gave up buying pregnancy tests a long time ago, it was the only one I had available. And since I was convinced I was getting a negative, I really didn't care what kind of test it was.
So, when TJ got home from the gym, we were both sick to our stomachs. I went ahead and took the test and we both were just staring at it, having no idea how to read this stupid thing. We thought it was positive, but we weren't sure. Needing some reassurance, we jumped in the car and hauled ass to CVS and bought 2 boxes of digital tests. I took 2 more tests and what do ya know......
We couldn't believe it. Of course TJ said he knew all along (which he was extra confident)...but I couldn't believe it. Finally, I was staring at a positive pregnancy test. Something I never thought I'd see again. So, the next morning I took another positive test. We told our parents, siblings, and a few close friends. It's hard to keep an IVF pregnancy a secret when all your loved ones know and are waiting in anticipation. But, at this point, why would I want to keep it a secret. I've been waiting so long to be able to say those words: I'M PREGNANT! And as far as I'm concerned, all the prayers we've been receiving have been heard and I hope they continue throughout our pregnancy because we have a long way to go.
Finally, I went for my bloodwork this morning. They called this afternoon to tell me I'm definitely pregnant and my beta is 132. She said they like to see anything around 60-100, so my number looks great right now. I go back for 2 more blood tests next week and then we will schedule our first ultrasound. I think it will become real for me when I see and hear a heartbeat. I didn't make it that far the first time I got pregnant, so getting through the next few weeks is crucial for me.
I am forever thankful and grateful for our family and friends who have supported us throughout our journey. This has become their journey too. And to all doctors, nurses, and office staff who have been a part of our life for the last year and who have given us the miracle we are experiencing today.
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