6 Weeks

Today, I am officially 6 weeks pregnant.  (hopefully I am doing these calculations correctly)  This is the most pregnant I've ever been!  I definitely feel pregnant.  I still have mild cramping off and on and my tummy feels tight, like I've been working out, but Lord knows I haven't.  I've been too scared to work out.  I went to the gym the other day to walk on the treadmill, but I wouldn't go above a 2.5 speed and was afraid to do anything else.  Maybe after the ultrasound, I will feel better about exercising.  I need to keep up with an exercise routine with the way I've been eating.  I do feel a tad nauseous at times and the only thing that makes me feel better is eating! 

Our ultrasound is in 5 days.  I am very excited and anxious for that day to come.  I am praying and hoping for one beautiful and strong heartbeat.  I opted just to have TJ and I go to this first u/s.  My mom asked if she could come, but for this one, I want TJ and I to experience it alone.  I have another u/s scheduled July 18 with my regular doctor, so I want her to come to that one with us.  By then, she'll be able to see more anyway.  We are going to Missouri in late July to visit TJ's family.  I'll be 11-12 weeks by then, so it's a perfect time to see all his family and celebrate our good news.  I wonder if I'll have a little baby bump by then???

I don't know if I've mentioned this before in my any of my posts, but we did have 3 top grade blastocysts to freeze for the future.  So, technically we have 3 potential babies "on ice".  I have no problem going through a frozen embryo transfer maybe a few years down the road.  I have no idea what the future holds for us.  I've always "planned" on having 2 kids.  I know now that I can't plan the number of my family members.  We have absolutely no control over this aspect of our lives.  What will be, will be.  All I know is that I will never take one moment of this miracle for granted and I am going to spoil this little baby with every ounce of love I have to give.