A Very Important Package Arrived...

All my IVF meds came yesterday.  I poured them all out on the counter and counted every single syringe and needle.  Despite the picture, I will describe the array of drugs.  Let's see...there is a total of 64 needles/syringes, 2 Gonal-F Pens (injectibles) and 1 Ovidrel Injectible.  I will be using the needles to inject Lupron and Menopur.  The others are pre-filled.  I've done the Ovidrel twice before with my 2 IUI's, so at least I know what to expect with that one.  I have to admit that I was surprised at my reaction to seeing all the meds.  I thought for sure that seeing them would be overwhelming for me, but I felt quite indifferent.  Maybe it hasn't hit me yet. 

I start my first Lupron shot on Tuesday, May 1, which is just a few days away.  I am attending a class that morning where I will receive my medication calendar and practice on how to give myself the shots.  I am planning on doing them myself, although I've already enlisted the help of my sister to assist with the first one...just incase I chicken out.  I think it will probably hit me on Tuesday as I'm in the class, injecting an orange...knowing that the orange will be my abdomen by nightfall.

I'm glad I have acupuncture scheduled that afternoon, so I can relax for that hour and hopefully clear my head.  I have been doing acupuncture once a week for about a month now.  I will continue it through treatment.  I have done lots of research that supports IVF and acupuncture, although my doctor says there's no "real" research that it increases success rates.  I also took the advice from someone who had a successful IVF(twins) and did acupuncture too.  At this point, I'll try anything to increase my chances of this working.  Lord knows I've tried everything over the last two years to get pregnant...baby aspirin, Pre-Seed, Evening Primrose Oil, Fertility Beads, Zinc, legs in the air...I could go on.  My point is, even if there's a small chance it may help, I'm doing it.  Plus...it is soooo relaxing and I need all the relaxation I can get right now.

I have to give props to my husband who has been wonderful through all of this.  He tells me all the time how strong I am and how he will be here for me every step of the way.  He even wants to give me my shots, but I told him no.  Partly because I don't trust him with a needle and partly because I want to conquer this myself.  I feel like if I can get through this, I can get through anything.  And with what may lie ahead, I need to know that I can.