On my way...

I had another appointment on Monday for my mock transfer, consent signings, and of course check writing!  The mock transfer is basically just to measure the uterus and to make sure the actual transfer will go smoothly.  It was quick and painless (thankfully).  We had to sign a packet of consent papers...TJ and I haven't signed that many forms together since the closing of our home!  The only part that was troubling for me was making the decision to implant one or two embryos.  Because of my age, our Dr. highly recommends single embryo transfer if the embryo is top grade.  If we do not have one great looking embryo, we will implant two.  Although I'm still thinking of doing two regardless.  Then, I got to write four separate checks totaling several thousand dollars..that was the fun part!  The lady in the office also told me that I would be paying separate for all my u/s and bloodwork, which I will be doing a lot of once I start my stimulation meds.  Speaking of meds...I haven't paid for those yet either.  I'm anticipating that they will total somewhere around $3000.  It's definitely stressful to think of the money we are spending.  When my doctor asked me if I had any questions or anything I am worried about...all I could say was "YES, I'm worried it won't work!"  That's the truth!  I am not worried about injecting myself with needles for a month straight.  I am not worried about what this will do to me physically.  I am worried that all this time and all this money will be for nothing.  What if it doesn't work?  I know I have to try to be positive, but I also know that I have to be realistic.  And the reality is...it may not work, but there's about a 60% chance it will.  So, hopefully, with that 60% and a lot of prayers...we will get our baby!