I've been back to work for two days now and am experiencing something I wasn't sure I would...People congratulating me! It's funny how word spreads, but my secret is out and I couldn't be prouder. Most of my colleagues know that I had been struggling to get pregnant, but only a handful know I did IVF. It's not that I'm ashamed, but it's not something you just come out and say. If I'm asked or if it comes up, I'll share my story. It's such a different vibe...being around other pregnant women and not dreading it or walking in on a teacher pumping and not secretly roll my eyes. I never thought I'd be here, but now that I am it's like I can't believe I ever thought I wouldn't be here. (if that makes sense)
The nausea is mostly gone, but I am getting more frequent headaches. I can not fit into any of my pants/jeans, so I'm wearing a few maternity things that are too big and don't fit right. I bought a few capri pants in a bigger size, which fit around the waist but not in the butt or legs. So, needless to say I am completely in between sizes right now. I feel like I am way bigger than I'm supposed to be. At night, my belly looks especially huge! I look at my tummy in the mirror and am in awe of how my body has already changed shape. The belly butter is being applied on a daily basis! TJ loves it and says this is what we've been waiting for.
It kind of hit me the other day...we are going to be responsible for another human being for the rest of our lives. In just 6 months or so, we will be changing diapers, feeding, burping, rocking, and holding our baby (among other things). It's a scary thought, but being parents is something TJ and I always knew we wanted. I've shared so much with him over the last 6 years and can't wait to share this with him too. I think he'll be a great dad.
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