As I approach my 28th week of pregnancy, I am feeling excited, anxious, and scared! It is hitting me that my life is about to change forever. Although I can not wait to see this little girl, I am nervous about the changes she will bring. TJ and I have been together going on 7 years and it has just been the two of us...coming and going as we please. I am fully aware that it will no longer be this free-flowing in about 3 months. I don't know if that's really hit TJ yet or not, but it is something I'm thinking about frequently. I mean, we walk out the door without cell phones or wallets or keys all the time...are we going to forget her too? Believe it or not, I worry about this! I worry about us being good parents and will motherhood come "naturally" for me like people say it does? Will I have a good labor, will I be able to breastfeed, will she look like us? So many unanswered questions. It's the fear of the unknown.
On the other hand, I also know (through the experiences of other parents) that having a baby will fill our lives with joy and new found love. That we will experience a happiness that we have never felt before. That I will see TJ as the father of my child and not just my husband. We are definitely ready for something new in our lives and although I know this will be the hardest thing we ever do, she will be the best thing we ever do.
We have started on Charlee's room. The walls are painted a shade of grey, the carpet is in, and TJ is in the process of installing the new baseboards. I can't wait to see the room finished. Still lots to do. Here is a picture of the bedding we picked out.
We have 2 showers coming up in the next few weeks and alreadyhave been receiving some gifts. I'm looking forward to celebrating Baby Charlee with family and friends. This is the homestretch! Lots to be thankful for this Thanksgiving holiday!!
I never realized how flat my stomach was until now! At 25 weeks, I have gained a total of 16 lbs. I think I'm pretty much all belly, except for the double chin and the cellulite I've mentioned in my blogs before. Unfortunately, I've been in quite a bit of pain over the last few weeks. My doctor says this is from the "symphysis pubis" becoming too stretchy, which has to do with the ligaments that usually keep your pelvic bone aligned. I guess it can cause pain in some women. There have been days where I've literally limped around work. My family keeps saying "you're only 6 months, what are you going to do when you're 8 or 9 months??" I've thought about this and the thought scares me, truthfully. I feel like a big wimp and that I am not being a very good pregnant person. But, it's not fun being in pain everyday! Today was the first day in weeks that I felt pretty good. It wasn't painful, just a dull ache. I'm hoping that the ligaments are done stretching at least for a few weeks.
What makes all this pain worthwhile?? Getting to feel her everyday, all day. She kicks and pokes nonstop in all different spots around my belly. I don't know what she's going to do when she gets too big to move around like that. I can already tell she's going to be an athlete (like her mommy).
Other exciting things going on...we registered, picked out the baby furniture, and now have started on the room. Well...TJ has started on the room. We're re-doing the baby's room and the guest room, so he has a lot of work ahead of him: painting, new carpet, baseboards, etc....We want our guest room to feel like home for Tj's mom when she comes to babysit Charlee while TJ and I go out...I mean when she comes to visit.
Our first gift came today from his Grandma. She bought us our monitor and I saw our pack n play had been bought too. It's crazy to think we will be using these things very soon. I know this month and next month will fly by because of the holidays and with so much to get done. February will be here before we know it. I am so excited to see our little girl and to hold and kiss her. It still blows my mind to know that I'm going to be a mom and that I'm going to have a daughter. I'm definitely getting to the point of just wanting her here, but until then, I am enjoying my last few months of sleeping and laying around on the couch whenever I want!
